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Saturday Self-Session: Birthday Edition

It’s a month away from my birthday! The big 3 9.

I certainly don’t feel like I’m in my last year of the thirties, and I’m told often I definitely don’t look like it either. However, as much as I’d like to not admit it, my birth certificate reveals the stone cold truth – Lordy, Lordy, I’m almost 40.

Somewhere my 20 year-old self is gagging with disbelief. #asif

I know, I know. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with being this age. I’ve gotten all the young stupid stuff out of the way and now I’m a mature sophisticated woman. Like the overused cliché I’m like a fine wine, right? Getting better with age (as I sip on my $5 red moscato #classy).

However, being as busy as I was this week - attending the New Kids on the Block concert; seeing Once the Musical; and preparing for my daughter’s graduation ceremony, I was sorely reminded that there’s some things I can’t do like I used to.

And it’s got me thinking…

There’s so much I want to see. I want to travel. I want to experience the world with my family. When I turned 30 I had an opportunity to partake in an international trip as part of my master’s program. I jumped at the chance to go to Africa and it was AMAZING. Seeing another country gives you a completely different outlook on things. It changed my perspective on life, completely. It opened my eyes and want the same experience for my family.

There’s so much I want to do. Blogging is just the tip of the iceberg. I want to make some major moves. I want to leave my mark on this earth before my time is up. I want the things that I do going forward to have meaning. I want to live on purpose.

There’s so much I have to say. This voice I’ve been given is just getting warmed up. I want to continue to inspire, encourage and teach others. I truly believe that I learned things the hard way for a reason. To share my story with people so that they can avoid making the same mistakes I did. I didn’t get where I am on accident and if you’re reading this, neither did you.

There’s so much I want to be. I’ve wasted a great deal of time being what others want of me. Working for people because they needed me; letting people walk over me because I was afraid to put myself first; and being scared to just stand out. I want to define who I am and not worry about what others think about it. This is my life and I not only want to be happy in it, I want to be at peace with it.

There’s so much I want to connect with. My kids. My husband. My family. My friends. My blogging friends. Me. I want to create life long positive relationships. They type that continues to grow over the course of time and is mutually beneficial. The type where I can learn and laugh from. I think we all have something to offer one another. We just have to make the effort to find out what that is exactly.

I'm not going to let the fact that I'm another year older turn me into a has been. There's way too much for me to accomplish and I'm ready for what lies ahead. I'm excited for it. I'm motivated by it. So much so that I have a plan for this upcoming year of 39.

I hope you continue sharing my journey with me because it's about to get daring. #365of39